Three Sisters

I have three sisters who I love so much but I do not get along with or I don't know enough to have any kind of relationship.

and my heart is broken.

I want to have the kind of relationship where we are best friends. Where the friendships that I have are nothing compared to my sisters.

Margaret and I say such hurtful things to each other or we don't say anything at all. We act like we want nothing to do with each other. We fight so much, seriously, I cry after every fight or during it. But I really love her, but our personalities are so different.

Alicia and Lesely are my birthsister and really I don't know them enough to be super close. But I wish they would show that they want a relantionship is too. Next month, it will be a year since we have talked. and man, it breaks my heart. I want to be sisters with them, I mean real sisters.

I just have to keep on praying. I just love them so much.

Niagra Falls

So this year for our family vaca, we went to Niagara Falls.

Here are some pictures:

*the family at "Caves of the Winds"*

*waiting in very long lines*

*we went to the Hershey's store*

*on the "Maid of the Mist*

*the American side of the falls*

*at Rilbey's believe or not*

*down at 'devil's hole*

all and all, it was a good time.

it always nice to get away.

down by ten

So I stared dieting about two weeks ago and I lost 10lbs!!!!!!!! When i loose 50lbs, I will start showing off but not till then. oh by the way, dieting sucks.

other than that, just enjoying the summer, job hunting, working, feeling the effects of sun burn.

trying to school stuff (classes and other stuff) done now.

pretty boring. hopefully more will happen soon.

wall-flower

so i was called a wall-flower tonight and the pisses me off.

wall-flower: In general terms, a wallflower is somebody who remains on the sidelines of a social activity.

and yes, it describes me but just a part. so i don't want to put my entire self out there all the time. yes, there are times where I half too. but that not all the freaking time.

i am shy, i always have and always will be. but once there a click, then hell, i put my whole self out there and go to freaking town.

gosh, he is not all that.

people who think they got everything going on, should die.

the guy i who said this to me, got something coming, let me tell you.

my mikalia

check out these pictures she took of herself.

she beautiful.

i always get those rolled eyes, when she doesn't like what I am saying.

she has a beautiful smile, it lights up her whole face.

i love this one.

myspace is waiting for her, lol.

how perfect is she.

I love this little girl, more than anything.

ps. I'm gonna be an aunt. yeah!

hate

i hate waiting.

i hate being single.

i hate liking someone.

i hate when that person doesn't share if he likes you or not.

i hate cars.

i hate gas prices.

i just hate hate.

i want to start to like.

i am angry at hate.

education

As of 5.19.2008, my major has been changed to Early Childhood Education. and I wish I could say that I am not feeling doubt but I am. Only because I look in wants ad and see that medical has so many job openings and teacher has some but not alot.

The reason I change it was because I love kids. It doesn't even feel like a job when I am working. The hours suck but I love my job. Hands down. So I want to feel that feeling with every job and being a doc. I know I wouldn't feel that.

So I am looking for a new job (need better hours), new place (don't want to live with the parents) and a new car (hate my now plus it will be my sister in about year and half) but no worries, God is good.

That is my life pretty much, off for the summer, so work and work and save and save. Look for a new job and hopefully start making car payments.

i though i share this cute video of my little Mya:

i didn't teach her that, it all natural.